I could do that is what crossed my mind as Cindy Beall discussed her husband's pornography addiction, his 10+ infidelities, his out-of-wedlock child -- and how she, with a humbled spirit and God's mighty power and grace, forgave him.
Talk about an overinflated, Trump-ish ego! Do I really think I could forgive, believe, love, trust, hope, and put one foot in front of the other to plow through the pain toward restoration? Yes, because, and only because, Jesus has forgiven, continues to forgive, has restored, continues to restore, has empowered and continues to empower me..
Part of me says I should delete everything I've written to this point and try again. But I choose not to be afraid of what you might think about me (arrogant and delusional are two words that come to mind), and, instead, hold to what God has done for and in me.
I've been forgiven much: an affair with a married man when I was 17, a hard heart, peevish behavior toward my husband, jealousy that cost me my relationship with my college roommate, and so much more. Jesus said those who've been forgiven much, love much; and, oh, how I love Him -- for Who He is -- Son of God, Master of the Universe, and Friend...and then for what He's done. Cindy Beall said the same thing in her own way on Mid-Morning.
My faith is not in myself, but in my God Who's proven Himself mighty enough to bring me Home, and, through His Spirit, to glorify Himself in every circumstance...whatever it may be.
Love your honesty. How can we (I) not forgive when I have been forgiven of so much?
ReplyDeleteI appreciated the way Cindy spoke of forgiveness being a process. I went thru a divorce and I did choose to forgive my spouse. It doesn't happen overnight. After having to remind myself hundreds of times that I had choosen to forgive, God healed me thru it. It is much easier to forgive others when you know you need forgiveness as well.
ReplyDeleteI listen nearly everyday. It is the highlight of my day. Thank you Lynne and Bekah for some great programs. I have always loved the program, but since it has become Lynne's calling, it has completely ROCKED! Great Stuff! Love the blogs too!